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Heyy hoes. haha .

Im having a VERYYY good night. Well first off . i didnt get to hang out w/ the friends i had planned too b/c they made plans && kinda didnt include me so i was like w/e.. no biggy YANO. i took a reallyyy long nap after school . heck yes that was fu n . then i took a shower and all that jazz && went to GAYLORD w/ mi hermana. Yea Yea .. that was FUN . NOOOOTT!!! i sat in the car for like . 2222 bazillion hours.. or 30 minutes. whichever one works.

&& tonight was raphs birthday sooo we were supposed to hang out w/ him but he went to a freaking strip club instead. LOOSERRR ! haha then i went to Jeffs w/ My magnificent sister . gahh i love her.. and on the way i got a fone call from the koremeister. miss that kiddo. hes coming to see me tommorow . HOPEFULLY.

Mckenzie && John are together.YAYYYY! BARNEY & BABYBOP . you guys are toooo cute. i love youb oth <33:smile:

Tommorow night is the System of a Down concert.. ticket sales are tommorow morning 10 am .. concert is tommorow night 8 pm doors open.. Granada Theatre. be there . cus i will be...

<3 IM ME IF YOU HAVE QUESTIONS ABOUT THE CONCERT.

&& LEAVE ME COMMENTS !! <33

Hey Kids. Nothin New so I thought id share a few Picz. <33

 MEEE <3

 RAWRR! EATCHA HEART OUT BABY!! haha <3

 WOAH-HOE-HOEEEE! haha . rad <3 . i know.

 MY BABY BOPPPP!! isnt she GORGEOUS?! wow..<3

Life has been pretty swell i suppose.?? Well except for the fact that i dont have a fone.. GRR. well maybe ill get it back. ? WHO KNOWS.but atleast i still get to do stuff this weekend.. ? Cant wait . && TAKS is finally over ..gahh that was soo gay . What a waste of a PERFECTLY good school week HHAHA . whew. well if i get Straight A's this 6 weeks i can get my tongue or Lip pierced..&& if i get A-B i can get my bellybutton. Cant wait for report cardsss..

P.s. Ill be deeply offended if you look && dont comment SO COMMENT!<3

Long Time No Update. <3

Thursday\\ Moved outta my moms house. she chose my stepdad over me. longgg story. but now im living w/ the one && only TONYYY yay !haha . and my padre. Then i went to my cheer class && started working punchfronts . another Yayyyy!

Friday\\ Got in a fight w/ Adam. the biggest JACKASS on this planet ..he hurt my feelings REALLYYYY bad. && adams gonna get his behind kicked by carlos now b/c Carlos loves me and isnt gonna let him get away with that. Me and my sister were supposed to go to the movies but when we finally found Tony he had been drinking b/c he was depressed so he was TANKEEDDD. and we ended up spending our friday night making sure he was okay ..

Saturday\\Went to Champion Cheer practice.. it was okay . We stunted;jumped;tumbled;and talked . Then at 1030 that night i got up and took a shower && Such and we went to see Amityville Horror @ midnight. OMMGGG!! that is a VERYYY good movie. i loved it. i almost peed myself so many times though haha.

and now its Sunday Morning. && im getting ready to go eat lunch w/ my mom and discuss why i moved out and all that jazz. wish me luck.*crosses fingers.*

Dear Andie,

I heard Angels by Sarah Mclachlin today .. You always used to tell me how much you felt you related to this song. Its been a little over two months .. and i still cant believe your really gone. People say they have dreams about you and .. god knows i do too . I never really got my answer .. why . Why Andie. ? I was the unhappy one..you were FINE. why didnt you say anything?. As i type this to you i hope you realize that im balling uncontrollably. I went swinging today .. i wish you couldve been there.. it doesnt quite seem like im "touching the sky" nemore w/out you there.. Andie i really wish i could be w/ you again . You have no idea how many things i would give up just for five minutes.. five god damned minutes. No this is not some sob suicide letter Andie. I had to get it out.. the time i spend w/ you on weekends just isnt enough anymore. Everything in my life was going downhill . you saw it going downhill .. you tried as hard as you possibly could to get me going again .. remember .. the little steam boat.. i hope so. it was my favorite story you ever told me .. it always made me smile. Hilary said "its like sex in your mouth " today.. i couldnt stop laughing.. it sounded JUST like you used to say it.Well theres this girl  ...but the only time im ever really confortable thinking about you being gone is when im around her .. she reminds me of you in more ways than one. and that comforts me .. for some odd reason. shes not you ..she cant be you ..but shes the closest ill ever get to having you back.

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance.. for the break that will make it okay. Theres always some reason to feel not good enough .. & its hard at the end of the day..  I need some distraction or a beautiful release. Memories seep from my veins. Let me be empty & weightless & maybe .. ill find some peace tonight.

Rest in peace andie.Cant wait for that day when we meet again..Yes, i do believe ..we will meet again. <3

-- Above is the letter i wrote & left at Andrea Vaughn's gravesite this afternoon..